Experiencing God

My bride/groom to be.
How I anxiously await the day
that we take that big step.
My heart beats only for you.
As I count down the days
to the great day that we unite,
I become loftier in spirit.
I am somewhat reticent of that day
that is rapidly approaching,
I fear that I am ill prepared
for that great and glorious moment,
As wonderful as it may seem,
It is hard to imagine
spending eternity with you,
After all, just one microsecond with you
sets my heart afire.
My fear of that great day is overshadowed
by my fear of not having that day.
Not wanting to be with you
after being touched by you,
does not seem like a possibility.
Being away from you
after you touched me so deeply,
puts me in the strangest place.
Knowing that we belong together,
but knowing that, that great
and glorious day may never come,
Puts me in the exact spot
where hades and paradise unite.
Being in two opposing realms at once
is very hard to deal with,
Knowing that these realms are concentric,
multiplies my emotional purging
to a point that transcends eternal.
I feel as if I am half way
between give and take,
You have placed me
between a rock and a hard place.
I know that we were meant to be together.
I must persist,
I must push forward
to that great and glorious day,
The great and glorious day
that we will marry.
Then we will be united.
Then I can bask in the enormous emptiness
that is so awesomely you.